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Please…..

Now that we thought our problems were fixed, that we were able to move into someone decent with air and heat and rooms for my babies, the woman says we have to look for something to put on the land so we can live in!!! WTF!!! Im going crazy here. For alms a year and a half I havant had a room and my babies either. I don’t have nowhere to have privacy, nowhere to even think. Now I’m going to have to live in a shed in like 30 degree weather!!!

Going crazy here!!! Want to go balk home!!! at least i have a bed for me and my babies but there is no way on earth to get out of here with my bunch without nobody noticing.

I now I am  not a saint but you can blame all the things that happen here. You can’t blame all the dirty plates or the mess or the clothes all over the place because it is not all me.

I feel like i need to be committed. Might as well join the army to get the shit out of here!!!

Im not happy!!!!

Joseph…

Joseph woke up. we call our baby 2 year old Vovo, its because his brother couldn’t say his name, thats what came out.Right here next to me drinking his sippy. Me and hi, we have a connection, we understand each other, we share a lot, he like to be with me and cuddle. Some times he rebels and throws stuff but it is kind of hard for him, being so small and kind of like the middle child. Marsha, marsha, marsha…..

Crazy life…..

I wake up and there is nothing else but screaming. When the babies wake up and breakfast and lunch and dinner. Its alms 12 midnight  and 2 are down but the one that is awake is worth the 2 that are asleep. Husband mad at met cause I caught him in a compromised situation on the internet. I just hope he didn’t feed this girl the whole idea of him having money and him tacking care of here cause that is what I fell for and it NEVER happened. Lies , lies, lies. Im not a virgin mary but I never promised him empty dreams.